Poetry from Hailey Spencer

Photo: Martha Dominguez de Gouveia

What To Write in Your Journal To Move On

….1. A description of what happened.

To transmogrify biography to story, certain details must be omitted for the sake of time. Do I drown out my lover’s unbrushed hair, the day I picked blackberries when all he wanted to do was kiss? The intimacy of an almost-remembered coffee order? What do I disclose and what do I obscure? Is description definition?

….2. How it left you feeling.

The last time we kissed was in the hallway before I took a sledgehammer to the walls. Half of my bedroom was paneled in mirrors and I watched his long thick hair as I prayed to the goddess of lies.

….3. Who was there and what they said and did.

He said, “I’m moving to New York.”
He said, “There’s nothing for me here.”
He said, “I’m sorry, I’m so fucking sorry.”

I said, “I love you.”
I said, “I love you.”
I said, “I’ll go.”

He went.
I didn’t.

….4. What you wish had happened instead.

We live together in a tiny apartment above a pizza shop, and we fight and we fuck and make art and sleeping in his arms has never felt better and I am deliriously happy.

We live together in a tiny apartment that is too hot in summer and too cold in winter, and we fight and we fight and the art I make is small and I can’t sleep with his arms this tight around me.

….5. Steps you could take to start moving on.

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Hailey Spencer is a Seattle-based poet with a BA in English from Seattle University. She is the creator of three webseries with the independent production company Arsenic Martini Productions. Her poetry has been published in multiple journals and anthologies. She loves fairy tales and has a tattoo of Baba Yaga’s house on her calf.

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